New

     So for those that don't know, yes, still looking for that dream job, but in the meantime...I've got bills to pay. So I took a job working for a local craft store. I won't say which one on here, but local to me. Luckily, for the most part, I seem to be picking things up quickly, considering I have a long standing over 8 closer to 9 years at a local bakery, of customer service, so I should be. I forgot what it's like to be new, to be the trainee, rather than the trainer. I've gotten so used to knowing exactly what I was doing, it's been an experience, to once again know nothing about what to do, or how to answer the phone for them, or even what to do during the "downtime" periods of the day. I'm trying to ask all the right questions, it's just hard knowing which ones. I guess it's just nice to be new, again.   

So He Sends Me An Article...

     This may start off sounding like a joke, but I swear it's not...

So my brother sends me an article about a straight male porn star, why? For those that do not know either of us that well-you may ask yourselves. The only answer I have for you, is that a close brother/sister relationship, always seems strange, take Angelina and her brother for example, to those that are not a part of it. Secondly, not only is this person a supposed porn star, that may do gay porn for the right price, they also have Cerebral Palsy.

     This brings me to MY idea-no, it has nothing to do with porn...People with Cerebral Palsy SOMETIMES are viewed as non-sexual, when in fact, thanks to #CPChatNow, and having blogged about my previous relationship(from age 5-9,no, not a sexual relationship, but that totally counts when people ask your permission in high school, to ask them out), I can tell you,I am straight, and many people with CP have relationships all the time, be they straight,gay,lesbian, bi or any other definition you would like to use.

     When asked if I am the marrying type? My answer is no. But on the other hand I did catch the bouquet, and who knows what I'll be thinking come ten years down the road, or so on...Right now I'm just trying to do my job, "I've gotta lot of living to do" to quote "Bye,Bye Birdie", before I even think about dating seriously, and I see no point in me dating, if not going towards a common end, of that phase of life. Wasting my time, I think not. I like the memes that say, "I love me, I think I'm the one." Right now, but as always that could change, it may not, depends on who I think might be "the one" for me, if I ever find them, if I ever want to find them, right now, I see no need. My life is great, why risk that with one person coming in, and changing everything...Also, as I've mentioned before dating sites kinda creep me out, even though I know people from #CPChatNow, that seem very happy because of them. Good for them! I wish them the best!

Brother, thank you for reminding me, it's important to note people with Cerebral Palsy, have relationships all the time, if we want.

Over 4,000 Views

If there is one thing I know about myself, I know that I am EXTREMELY introverted.  So the fact that I posted one of my blogs on my high school class group Facebook page, took a lot of courage for me to do, I was terrified...until the likes and comments started pouring in. Most, in fact, all were positive in some way.

On the other hand, I don't know what  was ultimately worried about, I mean, most of the people on there were in an English writing class with me at some point in our lives, my school was not THAT big, most peer reviewed my papers at some point, whether it was my paper on how to be innocent, or one of my less than perfect, yet entertaining speeches. These people have backed me, even when I had to defend myself when asked by my teacher if we only have one soulmate? I totally won over the majority of the class with my reply, don't ask me the specifics of it, just know that it was awesome, and that the majority of that class supported me. Yes, looking back, I don't know why I was fearful.

To the people I never talked to back then, thanks for reading! To the people I did talk to thank you! Thank you all for your support, and the over 4,000 views. Let me know what you want me to write about, and as always much love to those I call friends and family!

What's Up?

So what's up? You might ask...
     Well I started the memoir over, same title, different direction, happier with it. Talked to a book publisher about the whole writing process, so feeling better about that.
     Went to a dear friend's wedding, danced basically the whole time I was able to at the reception, and caught the bouquet with "Single Ladies" by Beyonce playing in the background, at least in my mind-still quite different than hearing things.
     I got a job at a well-known bank as a contract employee-sort of-still waiting on the damn background check to clear, hopefully I'll get to start Tuesday. Otherwise I lose the job, which would be really disappointing. Sorry if I got everyone's hopes up for nothing!
     Also, in the process of driving from Ames to West Des Moines and back, got a flat tire and drove all the way home before my Mom got home and told me, oops!

So yet again surviving, as always, despite having a cold that just won't go away...

Funny story, so my first college roommate-kind of a complete freshman whore, as in she used to bring guys other than her boyfriend back to the dorm, and I'd wake up with a used condom stuck to the bottom of my Croc in the morning, at 3:30am. Anywho, she decided to go skydiving one day...

She then brought a male friend from the dorms back to our dorm in broad daylight, who asks me : "Lindsay, why didn't you go skydiving?"

My reply  : "I had to do laundry..."

End of the conversation.